IVF week 2

I'm writing this in retrospect rather than during the week.

Saturday morning I had lab work and ultrasound done. For the ultrasound she only checked out that cyst. The nurse was kinda irritated that she didn't really count the follicles, but I go back Monday.

I went to the event with my friend. I ended up bringing my medication and left it at her house while we did yoga and meditation. Which was SO needed it's ridiculous. We ended up getting back to her house with about 15 minutes left for the hour window.

My headache has dissipated a lot throughout this week. I am also going to be honest that the time restraints are kind of a pain. I got used to it, but I feel very tethered to my home, especially during the evening.

I'm also super, duper sensitive. As a being, I'm generally sensitive, but the medication is making my sensitivity very real and close to the surface. I partly wonder if I'm using it as an excuse to allow myself to cry... but mostly I think it's due to the medication and excessive stress.

Monday morning we determined my cyst is shrinking and I've got a few follicles that are growing. I also have hit my anxiety threshold. I tend to be a worry-wart or anxious person, but this is chronic and excessive. I'm trying very hard to remain calm. It's hard.

Tuesday I went on a walk with a friend cuz it was nice outside and my anxiety still remained super high.

At my lab draw/ ultrasound appointment Wednesday I talked to the NP and MA about it and they said that it's good I'm noticing that the anxiety is out of control cuz it helps that I can try to do something. I've tried yoga, walking, meditation, tapping (tapping does seem to help, but my brain just won't shut off). I find going to the gym makes everything worse and I had to take my Fitbit off so I can't see my heart rate which due to the anxiety is a little higher than usual, which makes me more nervous... so I took it off for now. That helped. Honestly, typing about the anxiety is making me nervous again. You get the idea. I also don't want the anxiety to affect follicles growing, etc.

Friday I had another lab draw/ultrasound. There's a storm brewing in the area so I had my husband drive me. They told me I'll be monitored daily. But then the nurse called and said I don't have to go back until Sunday. Thank goodness because the storm was ridiculous.

So the biggest take-away this week is my anxiety. I need to get it under control.