thoughts.

I've had quite a few thoughts over the last month or so about what to write. And of course, for whatever reason, I haven't written.
But the thoughts that have gone through my head in the last few days are as follows:

I'm not sure how to feel about the CT shooting. Sadness, of course. Anger, fear, hopelessness? I don't know. I always say the majority of people are good. And they are. We board a plane, have to take off our shoes, make sure our liquids are a certain size, go through a scan that basically shows us naked. All because about .00001% of the population think it's a good idea to blow up a plane. I wouldn't even know where to start if I wanted to. Seriously. What the hell would I hide in my shoes? and how? And liquid? what? But we all have to do it.

And every time I wonder... is there someone here who really would get caught? I mean, at this point, they know the screenings. Some people are pure evil. I've seen the eyes of evil. It's scary. I've seen the eyes of crazy, that's scary.

A new era is coming. 12/21/12 is not the end of the world. It's the end of an era though. The changing of energies. We are moving into a more spiritual realm energy. This link explains more http://www.seri-worldwide.org/id435.html 

Say what you want about this, but if the world doesn't explode, or apocalypse, or whatever on Friday don't you want to hope that we are entering an era of peace, of unity. I do. I will take time on Friday to meditate, to open my heart, to accept the change in energy and send out positive vibes.

What happened last Friday was tragic and there seems to be more and more violence lately. All over the world. Maybe this Friday will begin a transformation. You can say that Friday's violence in CT happened because God wasn't in school. God was in school. The God I know is everywhere. You can say it was because of mental illness. Sure, but thousands of people throughout the world live with a mental illness daily and aren't destructive. You may say it's because the teachers didn't have guns to defend themselves and the children (I have a hard time with that one, but I will still write it). You may blame violent video games. You may blame guns in general. You may say, simply, it was evil. That it was. The country mourns for the loss of lives. It is tragic. Daily I mourn for the loss of lives. We, as a country, with my tax money continue to bomb and end innocent lives. This article portrays my daily heavy heart: http://www.policymic.com/articles/20884/is-america-like-adam-lanza-u-s-drone-strikes-have-killed-176-children-in-pakistan-alone

Many people wrote on Facebook regarding the tragedy. We mourn, we cry, we pray, we call our children's schools to find out their safety plan, we blame... Is this enough? Will things change? Will violence cease? Will peace prevail? What can we do? What will we do? What will you do? What will I do?

I will continue practicing peace. I will continue practicing compassion. I will continue to speak out for justice. I will speak out against violence of all kind. I will continue being a non-violent activist and pacifist. I will hope. I will pray. I will love.